Even though I'm sociable and love an occasion, I love me time even more. Since being little I've been very happy in my own company. In fact, I feel like I need time on my own to stay sane. I was really worried about moving in with my now husband for fear that I wouldn't get to spend time by myself. On the nights he was getting in late or when he was going out with friends I would relish being able to sit and read, listen to music, fantasise about what I would spend a big lottery win on, craft or just sit and 'be' - the quiet house all to myself was my oyster!
However, when I found out that we were having a baby, I didn't think about how it would impact on my precious 'me time'. Maybe I felt like I had worked it out with Hubble so I would easily work it out with a baby. Or (more likely) I just didn't think that a baby wouldn't allow me time by myself. I had glorious visions of sitting with a quiet baby who would enjoy time around the house just 'being' as much as I did. How wrong was I?!
As much as I adore being a Mum and doing fun things with my baby, just once in a blue moon I would love some time just for me. I guiltily find myself sneaking around as she happily plays as I know that as soon as she clocks me she'll want me to join in and praying for 5 minutes more sleep at nap time - all just to be able to drink a cup of tea in peace. Hubble does offer to have her so that I can have some chill time but it's rare because he likes spending time with both of us on his precious days off. Then when I do take him up on the offer I feel guilty of denying him family time or jealous of what they end up doing together - so it's a vicious cycle!
As my daughter moves towards becoming a toddler I fear that this situation is only going to get worse so I just need to get used to it and make the most of the little 'me time' I have. So for all of those mums and dads who pretend to have an upset stomach for a bit more time in the loo (true story) and who play hide and seek just to get lost for a few minutes we're in this together. For me, I just need to make the most of our little bundle of joy wanting to spend time with me before she becomes a dreaded teenager. But for now what about "me time?!".
Love Sophie x
PS - any tips/advice are more than welcome!
However, when I found out that we were having a baby, I didn't think about how it would impact on my precious 'me time'. Maybe I felt like I had worked it out with Hubble so I would easily work it out with a baby. Or (more likely) I just didn't think that a baby wouldn't allow me time by myself. I had glorious visions of sitting with a quiet baby who would enjoy time around the house just 'being' as much as I did. How wrong was I?!
As much as I adore being a Mum and doing fun things with my baby, just once in a blue moon I would love some time just for me. I guiltily find myself sneaking around as she happily plays as I know that as soon as she clocks me she'll want me to join in and praying for 5 minutes more sleep at nap time - all just to be able to drink a cup of tea in peace. Hubble does offer to have her so that I can have some chill time but it's rare because he likes spending time with both of us on his precious days off. Then when I do take him up on the offer I feel guilty of denying him family time or jealous of what they end up doing together - so it's a vicious cycle!
As my daughter moves towards becoming a toddler I fear that this situation is only going to get worse so I just need to get used to it and make the most of the little 'me time' I have. So for all of those mums and dads who pretend to have an upset stomach for a bit more time in the loo (true story) and who play hide and seek just to get lost for a few minutes we're in this together. For me, I just need to make the most of our little bundle of joy wanting to spend time with me before she becomes a dreaded teenager. But for now what about "me time?!".
Love Sophie x
PS - any tips/advice are more than welcome!
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